As a graduating senior, I cannot even begin to count the number of times that I have been asked what I am doing for the rest of my life. If we are being honest, depending on the day, I may either want to punch you or burst into tears. Neither of those are good options. But being asked that question has caused me to really, really think about what I want. More importantly, what does God want for me.

As a child, I remember always telling myself that money wouldn't matter when I grew up and I would always choose the career that brought me the most happiness. But now that I am becoming an adult the choices are not so cut and dry. You have to pay bills and support yourself. So this is where I'm at.

I was recently asked what would I do if I could do anything in the world with money not being an option. My first and lasting thought was downtown ministry. I am so passionate about the friends that I have made while at the plaza. I am on fire in my soul for the advocacy for homeless individuals. It is such a deep burden in my life and I am in constant thought and prayer over the individuals that I meet at the plaza. I truly feel the most alive when I am with them.

I don't know all the details of what is to come but I do know that this ministry has changed my life and God has used it in so many ways to transform me.

Sigh.

Every time I sit down at the computer and pull up my blog I am overcome with an overwhelming urge to blog and every time I end up not even being able to start. I have so many thoughts swirling around in my head that I do not even know where to start. Just a few of them...

I miss home.
Fighting with your best friend isn't fun.
Neither is being rejected by someone you love.
I feel alive when I am downtown and with my friends.
I don't know what to do with the rest of my life but I'm learning that no one really does.
I am human, oh so human.
Thoughts rule your life.

Jesus is Lord.